People don't cry because they're weak. They cry because they've been strong for too long

"I'm done hoping that we could work it out. I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels, letting you drag my heart around..."

:(

I'm Back!!!!!

Hello fellow bloggers! It's official. I absolutely suck at keeping up with all of my social networking sites. I haven't blogged since last month! And let me just tell you that SO much has happened since then. I will try and fill you all in as best as I can.

For starters; I turned 21 :) FINALLY, got a puppy, and started my senior year in college! Not to mention I have been in a serious dubstep/trance obsession so I have been going to shows alot! Yay for lots and lots of glitter and sequins :) This past weekend was also my sorority's recruitment and we got 25 beautiful new panda babies. No, seriously...they are ALL so pretty! Despite zero sleep, no food, and horrible blisters I had a wonderful time and I am so so proud to be an AOII. I'll post some pics from all of the above below since I know how much yall like pictures.

On another note, I am in desperate need of change in my life right now. Over the past week or so I have slowly come to realize that the life I was living and thought I wanted is no longer for me. I got so caught up in everything going on around me that I forgot to step back and consider what truly makes me happy. Sure, life is full of compromise and sacrifice, but I'm still so young. I shouldn't have to give up the things that make me happy...at least not yet. I guess it's good that I figured all this out now as opposed to later, but it's still all a little strange, and is definitely going to take some getting used to. I really am excited though to see what the future holds! Okay, I know I've been gone for a super long time but I have loads and loads of homework to finish up before my 9:30 class. I will try my hardest to keep yall up to date!!! :)

XOXO,
Jess

Oh and here are a few pics from the past month or so:

AOII Bid Night 2011

Pyramid...It took us SO long to make this work haha

Yeah...we're a little weird

Strike Out Arthritis on Philanthropy Day!

Sisterhood Day

Recruitment 2011 Open House

Friends Before Identity Fest

LOVE them :)

Yayyyy!!! Finally 21

New Puppy Chazz:))

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If a girl understands all your stupidity, sticks around through all your mistakes, and smiles even though you've done nothing for her, it's obvious she's a keeper but it's also obvious you don't deserve her.

time for change (yes, again)

Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay
Sometimes, change may not be what we want
Sometimes change is exactly what we need
And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you will ever have to do
But sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible
Sometimes, change is too much to bear
But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life

A half truth is a whole lie. - Yiddish Proverb

Hey ya'll! I know it's been a while since my last post, and I'm not going to even make an excuse. I guess lately I've gotten into the habit of only blogging about the bad in my life instead of the good. Unfortunately, today is not an exception. I logged in today for one reason and for one reason only. To vent.

I'm sure by now you have all read my little lists of things I love/hate. Sure, some of the things I listed are silly and pointless, but there are a few that are actually important to me. Exhibit A: Binx...haha. Yes. My cat is the most important thing in my life. Another thing that is really dear to my heart is an item on the "hate" list. I absolutely without a doubt cannot stand it when people lie to me. Something even worse? When you find out someone you love and care about has been lying to you. A pretty decent number of people fall into a group that I love and care about deeply, so this post isn't about a specific person per say (although the general message is directed to one particular individual-one who I hope sees this). It is however the tip of the iceberg. I hate when people feel the need to lie to me! True, the things friends choose to lie about all vary in degree, but the end note is still the same. They lied. And once you lie, you can never undo it. Sometimes I don't even know which I hate more; the fact that I was lied to, or that I was naive enough to never see what was going on right under my nose. It's not just lying though that urkes me. I think that sometimes people view the concept of withholding the truth and details as just that; simply forgetting to mention that something happened. If you are one of these people I suggest you stop in your tracks before you get yourself into trouble (or even MORE trouble). Withholding the truth is the exact same thing as lying. It confuses me when individuals who love and care about each other choose to lie to one another, but then again pretty much all the relationships I know of are based on a foundation of lies and mutually accepted delusion. So this is me venting and liars and the pathetic lives they choose to live. The next time you think about lying, whether it be something small or big, I urge you to think twice. Although it may seem small and pointless to you, you may never actually be able to understand or comprehend the damage it will cause to another person. So what's the moral of this little story? Do not lie-EVER. And don't even think about ever lying to me. It may take me a little while to figure it out and catch on, but I will ALWAYS find out...

xoxo,
Jess

Life is too short to stress yourself with people who don't even deserve to be an issue in your life